She got her own thing, thats why i love her.

I feel I'm pretty independent. 

I don't always have all my bases covered, and i sometimes i need help. 

I have my OWN unit, with all of my own things. 

I pay my rent, pay my bills, get myself to and from meetings. 

I buy my groceries and do my laundry. 

If something goes wrong, i fix it. 

I cook and clean and take out my bins. 

I dont rely on anybody but myself. 

Thats a pretty big achievement. 

Today i got myself all worked up and a mess over an overdue electricity bill. 

I was stressing out and in tears because i couldn't afford to pay it today. 

I finally took a few deep breaths, called the company, explained my situation and it was all solved in a few minutes. 

Ive never really had to do that before, I'm showing my age. 

I had to be a proper adult today and rationalise to fix the problem and avoid having my electricity cut off. I started thinking about a recent relationship and how good it was to have someone to fall back on in these situations, I miss having someone else on my team to talk things through with. Sometimes i hate doing it all on my own, but hey, I'm 20, i have all the time in the world to be chained to someone forever. 

After all this drama, Fez decided it was time i got a job, so she wrote me up and resume and helped me apply for a bunch of jobs. (Yay!). I know it sounds terrible, but sometimes i do need someone to just take control and help me sort myself out. You can be as independent as you like, but every once in a while everyone loses grip and needs a hand moving forward. 

On a lighter note, theres a bit of a gathering happening at "the boys house" for one of our friends who is going away. Everyone going is really fun and we went out to buy lots of wine to drink, so I'm looking very forward to drinking and catching up with everyone tonight. It should be excellent fun. :)